So it's day two

So it's day two of the blogging thing and I just got back from a "health fair" for the employees at a local Rehab Hospital. Not that I have anything to do (anymore) with health care, but a pal of mine is an Acupuncturist and she needed someone to poke little needles into for show and tell. I agreed 'cause I don't mind having tiny needles stuck in my body and I like her fine and it was free healthcare! How the hell do you turn THAT down? So I went and she was really nice and I watched an elderly lady break down when she saw the display of tar in a jar from smoking for only 1 year. It was really gross but she broke down and started tearing up because her husband smoked and had died from it. The person at that table was CLUELESS why the woman was so sad. I don't think she heard the "my husband died from smoking" comment. But how sad is that? You wander into a health fair pushing your little 2nd generation walker and you expect to get a banana and a blood pressure check and maybe some bling; but instead, you get reminded of your dearly departed husband and no one gets it, and you just stand there and the stupid girl at the table is saying you'll win a prize if you can tell her how long it would take for that much tar to accumulate in your lungs.



...I did finally get my acupuncture treatment and only my pal knows what she was treating 'cause I filled out the form and gave it to her and she started putting needles in but didn't want to have much of a conversation in the public space which I totally appreciated. Over all, I liked it and will go back for a second treatment at her office. But I totally can't pay after that so I will stick to my regular Chiropracter for which my insurance pays, and my LMT, who gives me a great deal, even though I really can't afford that either, but it is the only thing that keeps my body moving without a lot of pain which I really am tired of experiencing.



As for current events or what's in the news... some uber Republican came bounding out of the closet yesterday and said, get this, "there is room for gays in the Republican party." and then proceeded to say it took him this long to come to terms with his gayness. Well, here's my dig on this.

Are you fucking kidding me? First, apparently everyone except him knew he was gay when he was serving at the right hand of Bush II. Second, he worked his ASS off putting anti-marriage equality constitutional amendments on every ballot in every state he could. And finally, just where should the gays fit in his "Republican party?" Should they hang out with the rabidly homophobic religious zealots who live in the ultra right wing of the party? or, instead, should they stay in the closet and continue hating themselves and all others like them until they get CAUGHT or only until they get out of politics when it won't matter (like he did)?


As long as gays in general do not have complete equal standing in the eyes of the law, others will continue to take advantage of folks who have consistantly been told "you are not the same as me" and "not only are you not the same, you are less than me - less valuable, less worthy of love, or protection."

I am not speaking hypothetically here folks.

I nearly died. I took a bunch of pills and I nearly died because a group of old white men hauled me in front of them and kicked me out of my church. They said there was "no place for me in this or any other church." I was never told why, just that I was not to come back, I wasn't even offered the option of repenting. How could I? They wouldn't tell me what I had done wrong. That is because up to that point I hadn't done anything "wrong." It was gossip, innuendo. The only thing they said was I was UNNATURAL. I hadn't even come out yet. I was 15.

Every one of them was an "upstanding citizen," conservative, and most likely to vote the Anti-Abortion ticket back then. Yeah. Right. Gays are completely welcome in the Republican party - right along side those guys in the First Baptist Church, Southern of Butt Fark, Colorado.

No thanks, but welcome to the gay community Mr. Idontcarewhatyournameis, it's good to have you along for the ride. Now that you don't have to risk anything.